Just a Natural Consequence of Their Design, Just Part of Their Natural Life Cycle

it is strange to watch four towers blow up 

in the fog

playing peek-a-boo like they knew

like they wanted the local papers to say

OUR MONOLITHS REMAINED UNTAMED TILL THE LAST

or 

IN TYPICAL FIDDLER’S FASHION, THEY ARE GOING OUT ON THEIR OWN TERMS

the skyline afterwards was much the same

as it had been for most of the morning

amateurs in the crowd asked questions

such as which ones? and where are they? 

while standing directly in the pantomime line

and we shouted back behind you!

on Facebook, Carl begged the ether 

rather late in the day

if the demolition could be cancelled 

because he couldn’t see clearly

(the post was not reported)

a lady in a beret stood for three hours 

in snow on the pavement by her tripod

far too far away to capture anything

I stared at the corner of a house

willing the hyberboloids to materialise

and darken, like a nude’s underwear

on a mug that changes colour in heat

a cooling tower cannot be embarrassed

but it can be annihilated

reduced to a worthy absence

a scar is the mark left when you destroy a thing

it is not the thing

a scar requires there to have been a removal 

it exists in the after

it implies having missed, like Carl, 

who stayed home in the end, the bulk of the action

as with any change of state, there is a pause

our legs spin

we have chosen unknowing

we have chosen the cliff

the clouds did not part

but they thinned

same as how nothing is ever complete

it was 9:36 when Eris pressed 

the button          a cable unsnapped

from the plastic block she was holding

like a gleeful hoover cord putting itself away

Eris has mixed emotions about winning the raffle

with the comforting landmark gone 

how will she know when she’s home?

her son is sad 

the view from his bedroom window is changing

Eris doesn’t mention her feelings post-initiation

she shares a video from her husband’s phone

as a child I had a recurring dream 

about winning a raffle I wasn’t supposed to enter

and under the sudden storm clouds and hail

running away           my father’s voice booming

like the crack of four towers coming down

the structure collapses like a thin chocolate shield

doused in hot liquid caramel

I put a chocolate ball like an oyster in my mouth

in the revolving restaurant where we would try to impress

the billionaire who eventually sacked us

and its form imploded

in one expensive second

this wasn’t a failure though

I’d played my role

the towers fold like soft forms in fire

like kites caught in trees

like the fresh moves of inflatable men at car dealerships

being fanned through the knees

like pylons collapsing

like parachutes on top of my body        starved of wind

I want to watch the enormous shrink

photos of the four resultant chicken-pox stains

on the ground

make me gag

just dust now

we’re ghosts inhaling the insides of hoover bags

the material keeps coming

it will keep on coming

they are designed to collapse into their own pits

not to disturb anything

to pop            in a footprint

this is a date, I said

and kissed your cheek

the fog was brown and orange like when the Sahara 

comes and coats us

the pub was rammed 

people were drinking Heineken in the street

Previously published in Anthropocene Journal

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