Homesick in a Head I Don’t Know

i am home but i want      to go home

run down asphalt jump fence lay down under

cotton candy crepe myrtle i have never forgotten

the way to your heart my headspace              you knew

me then     did i know me then i am not me

now bloated burden hypomanic ambition     i did    not only    lose

you home i lost my self home     did you know             was the leaving

related like i stepped out your door and out

of what is    real i don’t think i can   get anything           back

you or the roof or     the pink trees or the 

girl with bangs hanging in brown eyes grinning beneath a   lens flare