Deamortization

Taking 25% off my final hours, 

in hopes I can borrow ahead of time,— that time—

for now, so I can feel the fear of the unknown today.

Then I will really get working, 

no more wasting of shadows in solitary confinements, 

and dollars hurled against mirrors at midnight.

Instead, there will be progress

thanks to the shivers of a darkness briefly visible,

which I hope are well ahead of my personal schedule.